How far along? 32-33 weeks!
Total weight gain/loss: More than 20 and less than 30! ;)
Maternity clothes? Oh yeah.
Stretch marks? Not yet!
Symptoms: More than I care to remember these last two weeks. The highlights: high blood pressure and contractions.
Sleep: Several wake-ups a night but I've been falling back to sleep pretty quickly lately.
Best moment this week: Baby showers!
Have you told family and friends: Yes.
Miss Anything? Not being on bed rest. It's going to be a long next few weeks, but I know it's what's best for baby Camden.
Movement: Tons.
Food cravings/aversions: Strawberry limemades. All day, everyday.
Have you started to show yet: Yes!
Gender prediction: It's a B-O-Y! Camden James
Belly Button in or out? More and more every day it pops.
Wedding rings on or off? Off.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy, although it's been a rough week.
Looking forward to: Camden growing a few more weeks and then coming out to meet us!!
With Camden's attempt at being a little escape artist last week, a few hospital visits, a lot of resting and some tears, our Florida shower was a very special treat last weekend! When I walked in, I was immediately blown away by how beautiful the space was, and noted every little detail Tori and Megan created to make the day so special. Not only were we extremely grateful for the hostesses of the beautiful shower, we were so thankful for our out-of-town family and friends in attendance, and blown away by the generosity of everyone who showered us so abundantly! Here are a few of my favorite highlights from the day in words:
- the lemonade!
- the jars, straws, and labels for the lemonade
- the drop off and baggage claim stations
- the cake pops and their wrapping
- ALL of the decorations
- the delicious food
- the diaper messages
- visiting with all of my wonderful guests
- opening gifts - everyone wrapped them so beautifully!
- I could go on forever :)
Now for a few highlights from the day in pictures:
I honestly feel like our baby showers were two of the most beautiful, tasteful, enjoyable showers I have ever attended, and we feel so blessed by everyone who was involved and attended. We are also thankful for those who couldn't attend but have reached out to us since. Camden is a very loved little man!
Last year, Tyler and I decided to make a list of resolutions. Our list consisted of individual goals and aspirations, and then some as a family of two. Some of our goals really have been accomplished; attend church more regularly, save for a baby (glad we did this one with my current state!), etc. Some of our individual goals, maybe not so much. That's kind of disappointing to me, given our Pastor discussed in church this past Sunday the true definition of resolution. When we are resolute about something, it means that we have already made up our minds to follow through 100 percent. This got me thinking: maybe this year it would be more beneficial for me to focus on quality, not quantity. While I do believe it is good to have aspirations, I think focusing on one that encompasses several areas of my life might be more attainable this year.
Listening to the message on Sunday, coupled with a text message received from my mom this week, inspired me to try something new. My mom shared with me that she was reading an article that suggested choosing a "just-for-you" word to set the tone for the new year, and using it to direct your attitude for the year ahead. The idea is to keep it somewhere you will see it often - a mirror, in your car, on your phone, etc. My mom had some fantastic ideas for what her "just-for-you" word might be, so I began to give mine some serious thought.
After a few sleepless (thanks, pregnancy insomnia) nights so far this week, I've had plenty of time to reflect on the most appropriate word for my upcoming year, and the one I want to set the tone for me, my family, and those around me.
The word I've settled on thoughtfully selected; grace. Grace, grace, and more grace. I googled for a better word. I tried dictionary.com for a more insightful sounding synonym. However, since God's grace is what first saved me, I couldn't think of a better word to describe what I was looking for.
Going into my 8th month of pregnancy and knowing I am just a few short months away from becoming, "Mommy", makes me reflect upon how hard I am already being on myself as a mom. From the time I found out I was pregnant until present, I have stressed about how every action I take might effect my son. Those early pregnancy fears have been replaced as of late with anxieties about my ability to balance. Will I be able to adequately balance my relationships with my friends, my family, my patients? Will I be able to be "supermom" to Camden and still have dinner on the table for my husband every night? The answer is a resounding, "probably not". I will probably not be perfect at balancing every aspect of my life. I will probably not be supermom and wife of the year every day of the week. And that's okay.
For so long, I have tried to give 100 percent of myself to every area of my life. One-hundred percent to my family, 100 percent to my friends, 100 percent to my job, and 100 percent to my church attendance and acts of service. Frankly, it's kind of lonely. Giving 100 percent of yourself to everyone else, leaves 0 percent for yourself. This is not me complaining, this is me making a realization that this expectation I have for myself of 100 percent, cannot carry into motherhood. I need to give myself....grace. Grace as I learn how to be a mom, grace as I attempt to settle into a new lifestyle, and grace as I make mistakes along the way.
This year, I also want to strive to have more grace for my husband. It is so easy for us as wives, I think, to get caught up in, "he just doesn't understand" or "he should know by now this is what I do or don't want". Attention women (myself included): men are not mind-readers. As much as I would love to be able to make eye contact with my husband across a crowded room and silently communicate to him my every desire at any given moment, it just doesn't usually work that way. I would like to really focus this year (and every year) on being more patient with my husband, more communicative of what I need from him instead of giving him "the face", and remembering to give him more grace.
Lastly, and maybe most impactful, is my desire to show more grace to strangers. In social work (and in life, really), we are taught that everyone is fighting a battle, and to treat them gently. It's a very noble idea, but when you are running late and the Grandma in front of you seems to have nowhere to go but slow, it's a little harder to live by. I have found my patience waning over the last year, and while I know that some of this is definitely pregnancy related, patience has also never been a spectacular asset of mine. Before allowing anger to brew within me and effect my interactions with others, I want to take a moment to breathe, and to truly remember that everyone has an untold story. Frankly, some people are just annoying and choose to drive that slowly, but I digress. The point is that I don't want my automatic reaction to annoyance to be anger at others. I want to conduct myself more gracefully.
I wrote this mostly for myself as a reminder of my chosen word to set the tone for 2015, but I also want to share it with some of my mommy friends because I think they need to hear it, too. Show yourselves some grace. You deserve it!
Happy 2015!
How far along? Combined 28 and 29 week updates.
Total weight gain/loss: Let's just say I was slightly over 20 last I was weighed. Maternity clothes? Yes! Loving my Jessica Simpson maternity skinny jeans lately, and maternity dresses with scarves. Stretch marks? Not yet!
Symptoms: Some swelling in my feet this week, horrible pain in the cartilage between the ribs in my back. Sleep: I sleep ok. I still fall asleep pretty quickly and have 1 or 2 wake-ups for bathroom trips.
Best moment this week: Surprising my parents with a 3D/4D ultrasound at A Stork's View and getting to watch him move around and make adorable faces for 30 minutes. Also, reaching the third trimester! Home stretch. It was also really fun working on the nursery with my parents and purchasing the mattress and glider.
Have you told family and friends: Yes.
Miss Anything? Bending over to do the laundry without getting out of breath, laying on my belly, no pelvic bone discomfort.
Movement: Oh, yes. Mr. Camden is an active little guy!
Food cravings/aversions: I can't think of anything I'm currently craving, but I do need to eat every two hours or so or I get exhausted.
Have you started to show yet: Yes! Gender prediction: It's a B-O-Y! Camden James
Belly Button in or out? My belly button is half popping. I'm curious to see if it's going to go the rest of the way.
Wedding rings on or off? Off.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy and excited, though easily annoyed with drivers and crowds.
Looking forward to: Starting to pack the hospital bag(s), our "babymoon" next weekend, maternity pictures in a few weeks, and my Florida baby shower the end of this month!
